Tadroon shino sej mishtahya? Sej sej?
3aish abyath, 7akook, topped with KDD non fat yoghurt. BS!!!!!!
Im back. cannot sleep. disoriented. I look at the mess created by my four oversized bags in my living room. The spaces are BIIIIG… no need for all that space in q8. I dont want to go out.
I actually broke out into a fit of crying 2 hours ago, i begged my husband to take me back home. Made worse by looking at pictures of my trip. i will share with you tommorow insha2 alla. give me a moment to clear my head plz
Um mit3ib ma nesaytich… but My husband has the flash with the draft in it!!!! He kidnapped it lel asaf, i think he might be a bit jealous of Edward Cullen.. ma yenlam 6b3an. I will put the link for you … here… http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/midnightsun.html
3anooda … ur post is special and its coming tommorow… but my head is a bit foggy now …
I have had the longest flu of my life. It just wont go away. Since my nose passage ways were blocked. The airpressure closed my ears, making them very very VERY PAINFUL and i cannot hear. The pain have subsided a bit now… stil wont open and bothering me.
Now… more on Edward Cullen…
You see, the last book is 760 pages nearly… i am now in page 550.
i do not want to continue, i actualy have a copy of Dorothy Koomson latest novel ‘good night beautiful’ on chapter 3 next to it, i read 3 pages of Breaking Dawn, then go back to dorothy’s book, because i literally do not want the book to end.
Whats so great?
You see, the book is for teenagers, the writing is good yet predictable, i came out to the conclusions of the things before they actually happened. and when u come to the obsession between bella and edward, aside from Edwards striking looks and vague dangerous appeal, there is not many sides to his character.
so? Why am i writing about it at 3 am in the morning, lost in the book since last week?
You see…
It is a love story between a Vampire and A human. Vampires put you off? So i thought… until i saw the movie out of boredom, which by the way is coming to Q8 on 15 January … o ana will go to it again, but someone has to break the news about that to my husband who hates revitsiting movies previously seen…
Anyways… so why?
Vampires and humans should not mix. they are so anti each other. The union between them is doomed. Yet, attraction and love is there…
how many of us have had equal equations love? how many love stories out there happen between two compatible lovers?
They say opposite attract. 80% of love stories are that way.
and then there is the self esteem issue.
Bella is ordinary, blah, klutz. Edward is hearbreakingly handsome and ticks all the right boxes, looks, money, intelligence, COMPASSION ya ryayel il q8…
Yet he loves her? That tiny bit of difference always nagged bella and tugged at her heart. she always felt less than him, unworthy of his love. Baffled as why it was her and no one else?
I could totally identify with that.
In my case, i am totally wrong for my husband, he is tall, handsome, educated, thin, and lean …
i am fat, ugly, less educated than him, and of the wrong social sector.
he doesnt care about that. He love me, i love him, hence we got married against our precious society’s wishes.
But i know he could have done much much MUCH better than me.
He could have married a young bouncy cheery q8y with silky hair and a thin body, san3a o 3ajel o rakda o 7leewa. Someone more suitable for him and his family’s demands. You see, im also 3asra o de3la y3ni…
So i will always always ALWAYS feel that … feel i am some how not the best thing that ever happened to him. That there are many girls out there who would deserve him more. No amount of self esteem or pep talk will change that fact for me. Ever.
Exactly like bella!
the 2nd book? Where he leaves her?
We once caved, before we got married. We lost all hope. We left each other.
Ever had to give up hope on ur love? In q8?
read the 2nd book and weep.
I recall once walking in Villa moda, in that dark time of my life. when i realized that there was no way we could be married with the blessing of our society. and that in order to preserve our families feelings we should not persue the idea of getting married any further, and that we should be apart for good. A clean break, like Edward told bella.
I recall i was walking in Villa moda, in the Free zone place, and there was that young couple, a wife and husband, she was choosing a dress, he was close to her in his dishdasha, cooing over her choise and holding her hand gingerly… they were lost in each other, oblivious to the crowd around them…
and i watched them with my bleeding broken heart.
Then i vowed to my self that, if i cannot marry the man i love with all my heart, if i cannot be with him, then i do not want to be with anyone else. End of story.
I want to get married because im in love. not because some woman thinks i would be a good match for her son, like a pillow that matches the couch.
and then i had to choose, either a man i love with society hating it and calling me the worst names on earth. Or a man the society approves for me, whose family will respect me and include me as one of their own, and someone i am stuck with for the rest of my life, sharing my most intimate details with him, whom i may or may not fall in love with sometime in the future.
and i chose to patch my heart. and the society still breathes and gossips and lives on. But i will never feel that i am ever good enough. or welcomed. or respected for that matter. i cannot win.
and my husband hates shopping with me. and hates villa moda even more.
Anyhoo, i ran out of words to say. I will go read a little more of Bella and
Edward.
By the way, q8y men out there… read the book plz. and plz plz plz try and treat the girls in ur lives (mom sis aunt wife fiancee ilee ohoo)… try and treat them lo a fraction of the way Edward treats bella… the concept NESRAA will disappear from ur dictionary!!!!
